For a long time I was a sporadic church attendee, I was the best “Sunday/Wednesday Christian” I could be. Every time I went to church, there was always a song or a word that would hit my spirit and I would begin to cry. I would feel so convicted by the word and vow to change right then and there, but it always stopped at my words. At some point in my life, I began to feel that if I didn’t cry at church, or I didn’t hear a word that caused me to lose control of my emotions then I wasn’t receiving it right or I wasn’t being fed.
This morning I was listening to Yolanda Adams “Yeah” and praising in the car on my way to work. I was praying and singing and asking for forgiveness because I know I haven’t been perfect. Something in my mind started to tell me that I was praying hard enough and I wasn’t sincere because I wasn’t weeping in my praise or prayer. Then something even more amazing happened…my spirit shut that thought down within seconds of it forming. I received a wonderful revelation and received another as I was writing this blog. God does not condemn us he forgives us and forgets everything that we repent on. Sometimes the word will convict us on some things, but Jesus said that His joy is in us that our joy may be full. Our spirits are not supposed to stay grieved. God forgives us for that reason and tells us to cast our cares upon Him (1Peter 5:7); Lay our burdens at His feet (Ps.55:22). The world tells us to let not our hearts be troubled (John 14:1)…
I know now and am so thankful that my spirit is no longer grieved. I know that I am forgiven, that I am a Daughter of Increase and that I have inherited the Kingdom. The second revelation I received in that my spirit is truly battling constantly against the things of the world. I pray every morning and thank God for His full armor (Eph.6:10-18) that I keep on and am constantly ready for the spiritual battle at hand. Had I neglected to realize that God has given me everything I need for success and had I not claimed and possessed the armor that God promised me; that thought, could and would have festered and continued to bring a false grief to my spirit that should not be there.
Take a moment today to make sure your spirit is equipped for battle and know that you are forgiven. Let not your heart be troubled because you have the joy of the Lord!